it literally slipped through my fingers--

--the tiny broken bones of my left hand.
i thot to use this "deadline" gambit as a reason to take time to give it a proper telling
or some of it
and it will be told
but these little nubs have worked so hard and mindfully
i can't ask more of them without them having too much the right in giving up the ghost
and while i dismiss and dispell
i'm past giving up
done enough of that for this lifetime
and too rarely willingly or on my own behalf
they've given me so much
having to learn and relearn so many times
already i know
yet more negligence from some self important "professional"
it's already never going to be as well as its undamaged state

it's not like i ever planned to be a classical guitarist
it's not as if it'll be a stump or a hook
if frazetta could bother to retrain his hand after a stroke
i can make due
and give my poor left hand
a rest

i would rush through the high points
but as it concerns so many other people
some who can never get to speak for themselves
they deserves better